What's been going on...

I've decided to go ahead and start blogging to keep everyone updated on whats happening and for Trav and I to have it for memories! Although after today I'm not sure I want to remember! More on that in a minute!!

So...all of you at some point in the last year or longer have ask the million dollar question..."When are y'all going to have kids?" Well, we've been trying and trying and trying. Obviously it hasn't happened. Last month we decided it was finally time to seek medical help and find out why it's not happening. I went to my Dr last month and we got a game plan. It was basically to have us both go through some test, then start fertility meds. I was SO hopeful and it NEVER occurred to me that something might be wrong. I thought we would get the testing done, everything would be great, start taking fertility meds and get pregnant.

There has seemed to be some kind of road block with every step we've taken in the last month. So frustrating and disappointing for us both. At times I just had to laugh at our luck!! Most of you know everything that's gone on this month!

To bring you up to date to today. I had to have a procedure called a hysteosalpingogram(HSG for short). It's where they inject dye into my cervix to see if it will flow into my fallopian tubes to see if there is a blockage. Sounds fun, right?? It was HORRIBLE! The Dr told me I would know if my tubes were blocked because it would be painful. Painful it was! I screamed so loud! Both tubes were blocked. He was able to unblock one tube during the procedure. Needless to say, I was upset. My game plan wasn't going as we had hoped but I am thankful to know why we haven't been able to get pregnant. And even more so to know that I have one working tube now!! Finally some answers. I'm not sure what will happen next. I will follow up with my Dr next week. The Dr today said options might be surgery to unblock the other tube or to move on to meds to stimulate my ovaries. He also mentioned that I could have endometriosis. I'm really hoping against surgery but honestly at this point I will do whatever it takes!!

I was looking at my papers today from my Dr and noticed it said "diagnoses: infertility." My heart kinda dropped right then. I know its true but for some reason seeing it in black and white made it so real. I've always feared I would be infertile. I'm not sure why but have always had that gut feeling about it. Yes, it hurts and its scary but I'm promising myself WE will get through this and it will end with us becoming parents and making our parents grandparents! So for now, we will take it day by day and hold onto hope!!! I will post more once we know what will happen next! Thanks everyone for your prayers!! It means so much to us!

****Sorry if there are typos or this post is all over the place....I'm blaming the horrible pain I'm in from that lovely procedure**** :)

Love y'all,
Justin