Long overdue update!

It's been forever since I updated this blog but felt like today was a good time!! Last I wrote about was that I was about to start taking Clomid. A LOT has happened since then. Then my dr was very hopeful that we would get pregnant right away. Well, we didn't. I just finished my second month of clomid and we aren't any closer to getting pregnant, if anything we are 10 steps back. Long story short, over the last few months I found out that I have Poly cystic ovarian syndrome(PCOS). That was a huge shock!! And today I found out I have 8 cyst on my ovaries and also that I am not pregnant. No clue what kind of cyst, if they are harmful or not. My nurse literately called me today, said my uterus looks great and that I have 8 cyst and hung up the phone before I could ask any questions. Today sucked!! Good news is, I'm switching dr's and have my first appt with the new one tomorrow afternoon. It would take me a week to explain all the reasons I am switching! It's been hell with the current dr and I'm happy to be moving on.

So tomorrow, I'm praying that my new dr has a better plan and more advice than my current dr has given. I'm excited to see if there is something different we can try. Maybe there is more testing he can do or something! We are willing to try anything at this point. This month will be #21 of trying to conceive. I'm ready for this journey to end!!!

I have been very very positive this whole time and today I hit the point to where I am angry. Every time I go to my dr its bad news after bad news. I don't know when enough will be enough but I am NOT giving up. It's hard on me and Trav. But thankfully our marriage is stronger than ever and I don't know how we would get through the days without each other. I love you babe!!!!

Also, my friends and family! If you are reading this you know who you are!! Calling/texting me every day to see how I am and listening to me rant about all this!! I LOVE YOU and don't know what I did to deserve such AMAZING friends!! And all you women that are in the same boat I am, I'm so thankful we all have each other as support team!!  (Side note----if you are reading this and are trying to conceive and want support, please please let me know so I can add you to our little fb group, email me at justmoffat @ gmail dot com)

Long story short....Trying to have a baby is not fun!! LOL

My friends are throwing a BBQ birthday Party for me this weekend and I don't think I've ever been more excited! We need to relax, laugh and get our minds off this for a few hours at least!!


XOXO,
Justin

PS....I'd love to add pics to my post so they aren't so blah looking but I don't know how! :) sorry!!!!